Letter

... I'm scared. I'm afraid - not of things immediate, but of losing sight of the direction I thought I have found.

I keep thinking that I have to lose my way to find it again, but it's all so uncertain given that I don't yet know what what I have been made for.

It's like being cast into the ocean, lifejacket and all, having been taught how to swim and knowing your strokes are good and strong, but the ocean is vast and the water is freezing and you wonder how good a job you will do at trying to survive.